I am a Christian Liberal.
I am a proud African American woman.
I am a university student.
I am a firm believer that God didn’t put me on this Earth to do his job!(judge,persecute, mock, etc.)
I believe that I am a product of love and therefore should pass the love that was given to me around, and not just love but compassion, understanding, respect, and tolerance too.
I am the daughter of two hard-working individuals who proudly served their country (both in the army).
I am the daughter of two proud individuals who fell upon hard times, but always did what was necessary to protect me.
I am a product of public assistance (welfare,w.i.c,government housing, etc)
I do not feel like the government owes me anything, and I am grateful to be citizen of a Country that offers assistance to those in need.
I believe that the two party system is a completely idiotic notion and truly stunts the American people.
I believe that there is no reason for military weapons to be in the hands of civilians.
I believe that what someone does with their body is their choice, and though I might not agree it is not my place to judge.
I feel that people should be able to love whomever they choose.
I believe that education (of some sort) is vital to having a successful future.
I value creativity.
I am a proud.
I am a what He says I am.
I am thankful.
I have been blessed enough to go to a $40,000 a year college for $10 a term, or I am suppose to be able to $40,000 a year college for $10 a term. -_-
While I was on winter break I was told via email that my school account was on hold because I owe a little over $300 dollars… (I know- sucks to suck) Now to a lot of people 300 bucks isn’t a big deal, however pulling that money together in extremely short notice can prove to be a little stressful.
Today I talked to the financial aid people (who were very nice) and found out I couldn’t get an extension on the payment and as long as it wasn’t paid I couldn’t 1- register for classes (which we do in two weeks) or get 2- get a copy of my transcripts (which I need because I am transferring).
More than a little discouraged I told my boyfriend what was happening and that even though my mom and dad were giving me money I was still short - So he did what any other amazingly wonderful man would do and offered to pay what they couldn’t. I was completely speechless! He’s going through his own drama/stuff right now and money isn’t really something that can be spared at this point, but the fact that he offered made my day. I politely declined and told him to put his money towards his bills or something, he asked again- but I was positive that I didn’t want him to give me cash (I’ve always hated taking cash from any man other than my father). A couple hours later he texted me telling me that he gave my mom the $100 difference. When I told him he didn’t have to do that he just said this it was important and he didn’t want me missing any school (darn, where was he when I was in high school, Lol), when I told him that what he did meant a lot to me and simply replied “You mean a lot to me :)”… then i pretty much just died ^__^
God has blessed me so much - 1- being able to be a school that offer a top notch education, and 2- ALWAYS making a way for me to get what I need.
Thank you God for putting people in my life who want to see me succeed and thank you for continuously blessing me!!
I love it!!! ^_^
I am Assertive
I am Balancing
I am Creative
I am Decisive
I am Enthusiastic
I am Focused
I am Generous
I am Healthy
I am Intelligent
I am Just
I am Kind
I am Lovable
I am Me
I am Noble
I am Optimistic
I am Patient
I am Quiet…when I need to be
I am Resourceful
I am Successful
I am Talented
I am Unique
I am Vital
I am Wise
I am eXpanding…in consciousness
I am Youthful
I am Zestful
You can call me a cynic or a pessimistic if you please but I am a firm believer that love is the root cause for most of the fucked up shit going on in this world. People just go stupid for it. They love power so the destroy, they love money so they steal, or (the worst offense) they love someone else so they give up everything they are. Isn’t love suppose to be patient and caring and kind and all that other bullshit. I don’t know- i guess I’m just rambling on about some nonsense… It’s just I cannot grasp my head around why someone would be so stupid in “Love”.
Ok, right now I’m in a situation my best friend/room-mate has broken up with her boyfriend for reasons I would probably be shanked over if I posted them on the internet (And I’ll also give you the liberty of letting your imagination get the best of you- If you can think it it was probably done during the course of this relationship:/..) What she did was incredibly brave and I was extremely proud of her. She was in a bad place for two years and she finally took initiative and got out of it - all the while maintaining the determination to try to remain friends. This was only a week ago and it somehow has (extremely quickly) crumbled or should a say reverted to a copy of the relationship minus the sex. Her whole purpose was to do this break in an effort to find out who she is… but in her mind she can do that while talking to him/ seeing him everyday, flirting with him, cuddling with him and the like. Now you can correct me if I’m wrong, but doesn’t that sound like a relationship?!
And then there’s little ole me. she asked me to help her see what she couldn’t - so I offered her advice —-
“Either be with him and fuck him or don’t be with him and try to work on yourself. Not saying that you can’t be friends - just know you boundaries! Would you cuddle with your friends in the same bed all night, You wouldn’t get into a frenzy if your friends saw you when you just wokeup, and you wouldn’t get angry and defensive if your mom ask about your “friendship”. ” — and now I’m in the wrong? -_-
*sigh* It’s just frustrating for me because I want her a to a strong independent woman who can stand on her own two feet and doesn’t need a man or anyone else to hold her hand. And it’s not like she doesn’t see the issues - she recognizes that this relationship has caused her to lose herself-has cost her the relationship with her biological family- and has cost her a deep relationship with God. Yet she does nothing.
And all because she Loves him.
It pains me to write this but “love” has made a weak and stupid individual out of my friend …and if that is the end result I want nothing to do with it.
As a secret hopeless romantic I have always hoped that an edgy Mr. Darcy was out there. But lately I’ve been thinking maybe Jane Austen’s idea of love doesn’t exist - there are no grand gestures or growth.
Maybe stupid daytime shows - like Bold and the Beautiful- have love pinned. It is destructive, betraying, and the leading cause of Drama.